Dear Diary

September 23, 1980

My Mum gave me a journal for my 15th birthday. She thinks it will help...help with what? Will it help keep Richard's hands to himself? Will it help keep the shadows away--especially the one that talks? But maybe if I get all the stuff inside my head out, I'd feel better?

I've been waking up so tired lately--crazy dreams, like I sleep walk without ever leaving my bed.

I was flying toward a church with a single light on, not a candle, not sunlight some other type of source, but when I got there there was nothing. I get this feeling both when I sleep and when I'm awake that I'm being watched--it could be Richard but it feels darker, if that's even possible. I used to think it was God, or maybe a ghost. It's been there my whole life. Can you be haunted everywhere you go?

Maybe I'm just weird. Or maybe something is happening, I just don't know what it is yet.

catch you later,

Wilona